It’s been 42 days since I had my last daily dose of psych meds. For the seven years prior, save for less than a week in June 2009, I’ve been taking Lexapro. For eight years prior to that, doctors described a series of 16 different drugs to combat bipolar disorder, ADHD, and depression.

Added up, this means I’ve been on some kind of pharma med for almost half my life, and every single year I’ve lived outside of my parents’ home.

In that time, I’ve tried to grow up and make a life for myself. Now, 42 days after I finally said no to psych meds, I’ve no idea who I am anymore.

I can’t even write all that well.